Y did u leave us...

I cry when i wake up...go to bed...at work...or just go to some stores...i'm crying all the time...i cant help it...i 'm trying so hard to face this reallity but i cant...im just dying inside...So y did u leave me? Just because im not so pritty anymore? or im not so funny?I look thru some old pics of me...I was beautifull...i was so slim...happy...had a nice tan....I know im not the same rite now... but its just because im pregnant... I gain some weight...i didnt wanna kiss u sometimes just because i was so sick and that heartburn... i didnt feel comfortable...Even if i didnt wanna wear make up sometimes... was it a reason to leave me???So y did u leave me??? I know i have pieced u off so many times...couldnt control myself...I told u million times that i did all that not because i hated u... or wanted to fuck up ur day... no...that just was a prenatal depression... that alll woman have during their pregnancy... "prenatal depression is a health problem. not a fault of any woman"... Sorry u didnt get it...So y did u leave me??? All the time im alone... i hate my place...because it is so empty...and quet... i hate it.....i come home and there is noone... noone is waiting for me anymore... noone ask how i feel... if i need anything...noone gives me a hug...i have noone to share my feelings....and it is killing me...Do u know how far i am? sure u do not...well..im 35 weeks already... Im still working....not only because i need money...but because my job helps me to keep my mind out of you.....Do u know that sometimes i come home being so tired my feet and back hurt so bad because i have to be on my feet all day at work....and i have noone at least to give me massage....So y did u leave me???I wasnt ready to be alone like that...How could you find another woman so fast????How for the God sake u go to see movies with her... or make love to her... when there is me...alone... with ur son inside of me.... Do u really never think about us at all????? How can u not even call me for weeks and weeks? what about if im already at the hospital....dont u really care about that??? So y did u leave me??? Come on... u even dont know where i work or i live...u really never cared about me...May be God protects me from u like that... i dont know... All i know is that YOU have hurt me ... You do not cry about me ...You have moved on already...Sometimes it happens that u loose ur feelings... but u have to be responsible... I cant wait to have my son....So i wont have a second to think about you....Well....i did trusted you... believed in you...May be i just was so blind...How can u just live ur life when u know there is somewhere ur son...that needs u so bad...but u just dont think about that....I wanna thank my mom and my brother that help me rite now...and support me alot...               So Y did u leave me???