Y menya takaya sityatsiya... maliw na 35-36 bil ochne aktiven... potom ya prostila, provalyalas vsego 3 dnya doma, no vse ravno... xodila k vrachy, skazalai, wto s maliwem vse ok! cherez pary dnei ya zametila, wto on stal ne takim aktivnim... mozhet emy tam yzhe mesta ne xvataet? i ranwe , ya postoyanno prosipalas 2 raza nochiy v tyalen... a seichas tolko odin raz... Y vas takoe bilo?? Spasibo>>>
I cry when i wake up...go to bed...at work...or just go to some stores...i'm crying all the time...i cant help it...i 'm trying so hard to face this reallity but i cant...im just dying inside...So y did u leave me? Just because im not so pritty anymore? or im not so funny?I look thru some old pics of me...I was beautifull...i was so slim...happy...had a nice tan....I know im not the same rite now... but its just because im pregnant... I gain some weight...i didnt wanna kiss u sometimes just because i was so sick and that heartburn... i didnt feel comfortable...Even if i didnt wanna wear make up sometimes... was it a reason to leave me???So y did u leave me??? I know i have pieced u off so many times...couldnt control myself...I told u million times that i did all that not because i hated u... or wanted to fuck up ur day... no...that just was a prenatal depression... that alll woman have during their pregnancy... "prenatal depression is a health problem. not a fault of any woman"... Sorry u didnt get it...So y did u leave me??? All the time im alone... i hate my place...because it is so empty...and quet... i hate it.....i come home and there is noone... noone is waiting for me anymore... noone ask how i feel... if i need anything...noone gives me a hug...i have noone to share my feelings....and it is killing me...Do u know how far i am? sure u do not...well..im 35 weeks already... Im still working....not only because i need money...but because my job helps me to keep my mind out of you.....Do u know that sometimes i come home being so tired my feet and back hurt so bad because i have to be on my feet all day at work....and i have noone at least to give me massage....So y did u leave me???I wasnt ready to be alone like that...How could you find another woman so fast????How for the God sake u go to see movies with her... or make love to her... when there is me...alone... with ur son inside of me.... Do u really never think about us at all????? How can u not even call me for weeks and weeks? what about if im already at the hospital....dont u really care about that??? So y did u leave me??? Come on... u even dont know where i work or i live...u really never cared about me...May be God protects me from u like that... i dont know... All i know is that YOU have hurt me ... You do not cry about me ...You have moved on already...Sometimes it happens that u loose ur feelings... but u have to be responsible... I cant wait to have my son....So i wont have a second to think about you....Well....i did trusted you... believed in you...May be i just was so blind...How can u just live ur life when u know there is somewhere ur son...that needs u so bad...but u just dont think about that....I wanna thank my mom and my brother that help me rite now...and support me alot... So Y did u leave me???
Segodnya b nam operatsionnyy gde delayt kesarilo vtoroe zanyatie....poveli nas po gospitaly...Pokazali raznie palati.. xoteli pokazat gde delayt kesarevo... a tyda kak pobezhali vse vrachi s med.sestrami...okazivaetsa, tam srochnoe kesarevo stali delat..... mi tak vse ispygalis...ya voobshe chyt v odmorok ne ypala.... tak perepygalas.....pervaya misl bila "ne xochy..... ne bydy....ne smogy..."Ya dazhe ne mogy peredat, wto ya togda chyvstvovala... kak predstavila, wto ya bydy tozhe lezhat v palate... sxvatki....rodi...i.t.d.... ya xotela ybezhat ottyda...ya ponyala,wto moralno sovsem ne gotova....kak spravitsa s etim chyvstvom...
04.13.09 Segodnya powla na kyrsi. bilo interesno i v tozhe vremya strawnovato.... pokazivali video... vse rasskazali podrobno pro sxvatki i t.d. Ya bila odna-odna, vse ostalnie po param... mne dazhe bilo kak-to ne po sebe... viwla v yzhasnom nastroenii...... Na sledyyshem zanyatii bydem proxodit dixanie....skazali, wtob vse priwli po param... a ya opyat bydy odna...konehcno ne ix eto delo... no ya to znay, wto ni segodnya...ni zavtra...da i ne v den rodov nikogo ne bydet... vot eto pygaet i ochen rasstraivaet...ved nyzhna podderzhka... a odnoi ochen trydno bydet moralno i fizicheski... obidno do slez...
nakonets sxodila k vrachy... vse y nas xorowo! rastem... serdechko xoroshee! perevernylis.. i opyat lezhim vniz golovoi... nadeys tak i ostanemsya do poyavleniya! Mne vse na rabote govorili, wto sliwkom mne azh kak-to ne po sebe bilo... a vrach posmotrela... i skazala, wto vse y nas idealno!! YA bila ochen rada!!! Ves maliw tozhe nabiraet xorowo, nesmotrya na to, wto na yzhi skazali, wto mi chyt-chyt malenkie!!!!....teper nam na priem cherez 2 nedeli ...a tam yzhe i oglyanytsa ne yspeem kak nastanet tot dolgozhdannii moment! a vot eshe, wto ona mne skazala.... na schet bolei v promezhnostyax i taze... eto ne kosti razdvigaytsa, a wto-to tam s mishtsami... vot.....